No Pollyanna

Posted on March 10, 2011 by bambifour

Part of the readings at mass today were “follow me, and you will have all you desire”. Paraphrased obviously. Christ is speaking of eternal life and a love we can’t even begin to fathom. But the human side of me has on occasion wondered why, after trying to live my life as Christ asked, God demands, loving others and God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, we can’t win even a small sweepstakes, amount in the lottery etc. I truly want for nothing, but at times I would like to go out for a nice steak, or hamburger or any meal out and not worry about the cost. Often I wish I had the money to give to a favorite cause or fundraiser. I see the cost of gas, a near empty gas tank and am sad that I can’t just take off whenever I want, go wherever I want.

Life growing up was much different from life now. At times even going to the thrift store for two dollar bag day is impossible and the dollar menu at a fast food restaurant is beyond my reach. At these times, I wish for more. I feel sorry for myself. But, when the day ends, I’m happy. I have plenty of food in my cupboard, I may not be ‘hungry’ for what I have, but I have it. I have a home to live in with heat, a bed and plenty to keep me entertained. What I want for is luxury items, things I seldom really need. What I have is so much more than millions in this world even dream of, even in our own country.

I have been blessed, I am grateful. But yes, sometimes I am a bit jealous and sometimes I want more.